一个人

一个人的时候 很无聊

一个人的时候 很无助

一个人的时候 很无奈

这是人生的过程

一个人 要自力

慢慢就习惯了

一个人的时候 亲人给的鼓励 

短短的 但稳住了我恐慌的心 

Father

Dad , I grew up already. 

You are the person that I get everything from you without a Thanks.
So go ahead to do so next time.

I know that's not an easy job.Where's your strength come from ? 
Make Home Warm and Lovely.

I hope to jog near the forest, climbing and have a cycle match with you again.

But I'm just away from home. I wish you stay healthy always.

Can the time just get slow a bit ? Don't make my daddy getting older and older.

May I do anything for you ?

How great  if I could buy the years that has gone so that your white hairs turn back to black. 

You are my idol in my life. Thanks, you've give The Best Home and The Best Things.  

Am I your proud ? Are you still worrying about us ?

My tears dropped once the lyrics started. 

Thanks God to give me a great daddy too.

 (''3 Muacks ~

好朋友

很好奇自己在别人心中占了个怎样的位置. 结果就跑去问了个朋友. 

我 : 朋友啊~ 我有哪个缺点你接受不来? 
她 : 没~ 为什么这样问?
我 : 就说说吧~ 我想知道嘛~
她 : 从来没想过这样的一个问题啊 ! 而且, 真的没什么接受不了地~ 就太 "sin" (爱整齐)
我 : 嗨~ (她会懂我的烦恼)
她 : 叹什么气嘛 ~ 去睡觉吧~ 别想太多~ 

我深知道诗筠的缺点多得是...但...
原来, 好朋友真的能包容你的一切...
不是因为不介意所以才容忍...
而是因为好朋友所以不介意...
不是需要你所以做你的朋友...
而是珍惜你所以才需要你的...


每天能和几个好朋友聊上几句是我疲惫的一天里最欣慰的事. 

A night with Teh Tarik

  Since move to a single small room. I learnt how to stay Alone. In stead to feel lonely, I enjoy the freedom inside. At least, I can do anything I like. Suddenly got a message...just a sense of touch...when you found someone miss you. I miss you too. I'm wondering will you stalk my blog? =) Dosn't matter, not important. Gemini like to refresh their precious moment *every night or even anywhere when they meet something caught their heart before.

  Is it true if you gave what to people, you'll get back the same? How many of us really take care about the feeling of your friends? Feel very annoyed...* if you have drop in here, take 5 minutes to think. WHAT you have contributed to others in a day? Come on guys~ kindly take part of your time sitting in front of the computer to help? Do look around, you wonder he/she are waiting you. Just imagine,don't you upset or disappointed when others treat you badly too. Don't try to give excuse for your unwillingness. Your help was noted; your cruel was carved.

  I'll do it whatever I can. Your cruel is part of the power to train out my strong wings. One day, my wings may strong enough to allow me fly. A night with Teh Tarik ... ^^

 

梦想

梦想不是挂在嘴边炫耀的空气.而是需要认真的实践.

等到对的风,我们展翅飞翔.

没有风,只要拥有足够强壮的翅膀,我们照样能拔地飞行.

人生最重要的,不是完成了什么,而是如何完成它.

人生中发生的每一件事都有它的意义.

绝对不要否定过去的每一个自己!我们无法时时刻刻坚强, 常常,我们得习惯如何在软弱中拙劣的活下去.

努力不被发现眼泪,然后珍惜每一个有机会看见你哭泣的人.

这个世界上,或许真存在不管怎么努力,也达不到地梦想.但如果一百倍的努力,能够换取一个呼吸的距离...欣赏它...那么,我会去做.

最后被自己感动不已.

专心致志.

所谓自我实现,未必要立下多大的目标,只要有些成长,你就会感受到生命的喜悦.

加油!

Little Things happened

Drop in here without an idea to write. During sem break, in mood to post something here but not free. So~ what I can share? Let see...how it's go on....

Yih Shean (cousin) wedding

I was her "bridesmaid". LOL ~ Actually I was informed half year before the wedding. I planned to slim down at first. Who knows my disobedient mouth keep on chewing authomatically the body expands. T.T Although image look in the photo is spoilt, memories were still appreciated. Finally she found someone LOVE her the most forever. Am I right to say like this? Pure love for puppies, true love in wedding. Can a baby pop out a year later ? ^^

Internship

Next sem gonna have our industry training. Got the acception by a consultant firm in hometown. Why choose hometown? I have no reason to stay in KL. Who care the allowances?  What really hope ---> I can learn more. Again, remind yourself. You can slow but don't stand. I'm just so worry many years later when you guys meet me up I'll stand exactly the place I am now. 

New Toy

I got a new toy. Thanks my family. I'll try to take care of it as well as possible. Gonna control myself and don't misuse its functions but fully use. You guys too ~ technology benefits us a lot. However its defects are all the way too.

I still love the old one honestly as very least people having the same as mine. XD Relics as the things inside you couldn't get in others. Yeah, it is one of the present from Yen before I entered college as an encouragement.

Result

Overall under satisfaction. Except one.  @@

STOP ! =) Thanks

Puppy Love

I watched a Thailand movie last few days. It is just a very very ordinary love story. However make me think much. The girl is so pretty and the boy is so handsome. What really attracted me is not about appearance but the character of them.

 When we were young , love is simple. You wouldn't realise how hard you tried and changed yourself because of someone. Changes and  efforts are never such things to make you tired. We can do everythings just to attract the one you love, Amazing. Innocence heart is the greatest and brightest star that lead us to step close with your beloved.

  We getting older and mature. It is so great to have a simple love but so far to catch. Love and beloved may become our burden. Sometimes you found that it is so tough to meet a right man in the right time. We don't know where the problems come from? Are my requirement too high or study and work make you forget about what is love? Sometimes even there is someone you are with but you found out that a lot difficulties between you.

  No matter how. Once get stick don't simply give up. Let the love inclusive all our weakness. No point to stay only during good time and that no word to promise when you don't mean it. There will be a LOVE belong to us and never go away when we live "seriously". ^^

 It's the last teen year for me. Definately, single is free,enjoyed to be single. However puppy love is one of the sympathise for my babyhood. I believe puppy love is memorable for you even when you gone. 

当下

写了又擦,擦了又写~最后,写了就这些~

很累,

很 开心,

很多受获,

真正想说的是,

我从来没想过,

原来,当心打开...这世界那么美好!

每一段人生,都有不同的人经过...好人坏人...

不必太介意一切的一切...

让时间证明它们...

我们何必苦了自己去害怕坏人的恶行对别人的伤害?

因为只有遇过雨天, 才懂得珍惜阳光.

总有一天你会看得见里头的含义.

培养有内涵的我们

事事放在心上,时时不能开心.朋友,当你忽略我,我提醒自己或许生活太忙让大家没时间坐下好好聊聊...所以当我不经易地的忽略了你时,可以不要太在意吗? 可能,对你们而言真的没什么...^^ 我很开心你能这样想...担心的一切只是我一面的多虑. 可是, 并不是说我们都可以又或应该忽略对方因为被忽略的感觉真的不好受. 不懂你有没有常想"他"(家人,朋友,知己)一直默默为你付出与关心你. 而你觉得一切都是理所当然.你不懂人一直付出和维持一段情谊真不容易,单方面的努力经营更是有着许多辛酸与泪水.你不懂付出也至少学会珍惜.

 有时,真的很累...累到受不了...红了眼眶也不敢哭不要哭...因为花哭的时间都没有. 电话里的妈妈,懂我,她安慰说不是不行只是累了所以有时做起事来毛手毛脚(这是家人的伟大).生呼吸生呼吸...泪(累)会倒流...^^  在生活里的另一头,试想想如果你是那么的认真过活但换来的还是被忽略与比较. 真的不好受~

亲爱的你们, 一个微笑能让早晨亮起,一个分享能让人窝心. 一个不经易的批评,忽略与伤害可以过了可以算但被批评的人的早晨给你毁了. 没有人会刻意去毁别人的生活或许你做的一切只想对方好为他着想.你可以在自己的言行举止多加改进来献出你"最好的礼物(忠言)".一来你帮了他又好让对方坦然接受你的好意,那不是两全其美吗?

我们是人不是神. 我和你都会犯同样的错误.过度的批评会对别人做出想象不到的伤害;被忽略有着难言的心酸.一起尽最大的努力不要忽略身边的人,好吗?

Dinner

This week not only busy with study,assignment and preparation of test. I was busy in the kitchen everyday except Tuesday (class dismiss 9.00pm). Yup, it is good for health and save my pocket money. You wouldn't know the truth unless I tell you here.

Once upon a time,  I thought how amazing and wonderful life to live from home...Once upon a time, I complained dishes prepared by mum were not under my "standard"...Once upon a time, I am not willing to wait my family to eat, when I felt hungry, I will just go ahead looking for my meal alone...

Today everythings changed. Step back house, no one care have you eat, no one care are you hungry. Everyday eat the same few types of food around your living area, no one ask " what you want to eat today?" and no choice we still need to eat no matter how bored you are to such "oily" food. Sometimes you may think what is the big problem get use to all such little things?

Yeah, hungry can eat. No prepared dinner can go and buy. No one eat with you? ALONE!  Always alone ~ No matter how delicious the food are...all tasteless. How long the lonely dinner will keep on? I am so jealous that you having someone,friends and family who enjoy their dinner with you~ Appreciate it if you are the luck'ies' ...

Can I Run Away?

9.00 pm class dismissed. I hoped I can run back...

9.30pm just stepped back, kicked away the shoes. I ran for bath...

10.45pm, I don't have any idea to start my site surveying assignment. Hope can run away from here...

4 more tests next week...

How long such life carry on?

 I am tired.

 Honestly, things and works around already make me exhausted.

So, can you don't judge me recently?

 I scared, I will run away.

 I only need support ...keep your advise for next time because...

I scared, I will run away.

Run away from my weakness.

Run away from these.

Ya, I am the one who never change no matter how hard I try to improve.I knew.

I don't want to run away from you and here.

I just want to be responsible with my life.

Leave me alone.

It is the best way for you and me.

Father's Day

 星期日,我爸爸还在工作.

他绝对不会因为生日,父亲节...而休息...这个时候打给他肯定没时间和我聊上几句.

他的字典里就只有努力,工作.为了我们他忙了大半辈子.

我也不懂自己有那个本领为他忙上半辈子吗...

曾经我妈这样对我们说过,这个世界你谁都能忘记包括我,就是爸爸不行...

你不会懂我爸对我们的付出有多大,就如我不懂你有多爱你爸爸...^^

 我没写过"爸爸"的文章,也不会写因为我怕你把我爸抢走.

那是小小时候的傻想法.我不写还有一个原因,就怕自己没那本事把"爸爸"的文章写好...

想说看见爸爸一天天老去,心会疼.

以前,跌到能背起我们的爸爸现在只能扶起...

父亲节,我就希望他健康快乐.

下一世,下下一世都要做你女儿...^^

各位孩子别忘了和爸爸说声爸爸节快乐!

19岁的生日 (last teen year) ^^

24.5.1992 我出身的日期...一路走来有着很多很多疼爱我的人.诗筠,不懂从何谢起.你们的爱已感受到了.今年的生日收到三个蛋糕两次的庆祝.其实,真的很感动.以后,我可以骄傲的炫耀曾经有那么一群朋友疯到午夜12.00来帮你庆生,多令人羡慕~ ^^ 不是开完笑,那是我生平第一次! 珍惜的要命了...

有个朋友,不怎么特别,有时说话不怎么投缘,烦起来还会令人讨厌...恨她会觉得自己是个罪人不恨她会觉得自己无辜啊~但她就是有朋友的心...看了真的会感动.
又有个朋友,明明没空,明明就很麻烦,明明可以假装忘记...死都抽个时间把蛋糕塞给自己然后匆匆去上课.我心情烂透了因为不能和送你蛋糕的人一起吃...真的很没意思...但又不能生气她才叫我哭笑不得!

让我流泪的终究是生活在同一个屋檐下一年的他们.一直相信和他们一块生活准没错...又是旧同学又是同乡又是朋友...有苦必对他们诉.容纳我一切缺点,自私,无知,高傲....所有所有...不但不怪我,还给予那份惊喜和心意~~远远胜过一切贵重的礼物.谢谢你们.真的谢谢你们.心麻到不行了~我每年都要这样哭一次好吗?!

当生日过去,还慢慢细读一大堆的祝福~~我幸福惨了...^^

人总是不满足.满满的祝福与疼爱中必定有那么的一点不完美.有些东适合烂在心里,让它成为成长的养分.(我常会不知足,所以常提醒自己)
想说...朋友,不要只顾着羡慕"我的" >.<  (*别人*)幸福而觉得自己一无所有.她是因为懂得知足所以幸福.

我不再许下让自己多成功的愿望;相反的我希望就算我一辈子都那么的无能还会有很多人来爱我帮我疼我. 嘻嘻~~神吧?!?我伟大的愿望!!!

我是一只小小鸟

有时后我觉得自己像一只小小鸟
想要飞 却怎么样也飞不高
也许有一天我栖上枝头 却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠


每次到了夜深人静的时候 我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我的明天没有变得更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说 我永远都找不到
我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞 却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞 却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高


所有知道我的名字的人啊 你们好不好
世界是如此的小 我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖 当你决定为你了的理想燃烧
生活的压力与生命的尊严哪一个重要
我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞 却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高


我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞 却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高


我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞 却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求算不算太高
这样的要求算不算太高

人真的会累,鼓励着我撑下去的一首歌.不要再害怕孤单.加油!!!

Stop Compare !

 Result was out yesterday. Finally passed. Thanks for the guys who help me in revision. I don't have any things in return you all but I am here to stay beside you any time you need my help.
 Many students got excellent results. However most of them do not satisfy with the results. Looking for better is a good attitude but dont let yourself always stay in stress. Come on. We are human, if you did your best. That's enough. Stop compare yourself with others. How many effort you put how many harvest you get. Sometime, we totally can't make balance of our mind to see those guy put less effort but get more. Yeah, you are right. God is not fair. Really not fair. He make everyone different. He let the person who are stronger to face more problems on the way to success because he believe on us. He believe that we are the one who can handle all the difficulties. Others can't, that is why we are choosen by him. ^^ Therefore, stop yourself to compare. You are not happy with your marks? How about the one who don't even has book to read? We do has the opportunity to study and we do try our best to do it well. Nothing else we do to regret, right?
 This is just the way I console myself . Unhappy things hold 9 per 10 in our life. Let the annoyance go only the pleasure stay in your heart.

Worth

  It is the time I stay alone. Great for me to refresh my mind, write and share. Next week gonna be second year student. Proud with that I am safe to stay. Finally moved to new unit with 2 new housemates and 2 previous housemates on 2nd of May. I didnt catch any photo of previous unit but I believe friends which close with us have been there before. For sure I miss it. Do you? Just as a 'stranger' or 'friend' to our unit, do you have memories in there? Pasta day, group study, gossip, celebrations and many.

  Holiday make changes in my hair. First time cut it from long to short. Good bye to my 6 years long hair. When I was sitting in the barber shop, took almost half hour to decide. I tried to call mum and friend too for suggestion but no one pick up my phone. God, I shaked. I wana change! Just hope get ahead in everything. Cut. Luckily you all accepted it. Not bad. When I never long hair, 13 has a big determination for I must make a long long hair. After 6 years, I made a bigger determination for I must try to cut short my first long hair.

 



long straight

 Is that possible another changes? We look forward too.

long curly

If nothing ever change, there'd be no butterflies. Tomorrow will be another change.

 short !!!

Do has the idea to change yourself, guys? It is worth no matter lost or gain as you learn more and get ahead. To be brave but humble.

Teenager

  Damn sick now. Just visit doctor because I keep on vomiting and diarrhea. I am not sure is the problem of food poison or the excream park of Sunway Lagoon...Yup, honestly I was so scare to play all such games and I will vomit and dizzy after play all of these. You may think what a crazy person I am? However, I asked myself...if I don't play within this age. When is the time I gonna play? I scare I will regret if I don't try it now. ^^  No matter how I still alive here so no worry. My father said "年轻人没有累, 就算生病, 睡醒一觉又是精力充沛." Listen guys, try every things ,do the best and enjoy every moment of our teenager period. hehe...very least in my blog without appreciation. Kit Kei, Foo Koay and Joyi. Thanks a lot. Last 3 days were the days I laughed the most...

  Last Friday went back AMC with FK to take SPM certificate. Spent less then RM 10 to eat a lot in AMC canteen.Yummy Yummy~~ It was Hari Anugerah too...we swear that we don't know about that...it's just happen without expected...We sang School Song before left... yearn every things happened in secondary school ...( most of my teenager memories was here)

AMC's Hall

RM1.00 Cheese Hot Dog

Beloved school and mentor
We hold you very dear
May we in your great hall
Be ever full of cheer
Learning there to love and serve
To care and also share
Each others' joy and sorrow
And all of value there

Let's in duty steadfast be
To country God and king
To our parents teachers
And all that life may bring
Growing wiser day by day
And humbly all the way
Gaining both in strength and grace  at
Both our work and play

When it's  time to say adieu
And make our way alone
We will always think of you
And all you have us shown
So may God bless us
As our world enlarges
Daughters of Ave Maria
Forward let us march.

Gemini

　
　　双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。
　　
　　　　笑　　
　　　　双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。
　　
　　　　爱
　　
　　　　一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：
　　双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。
　　
　　　　坚强　　
　　　　有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向
　　星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。
　　
　　　　人际
　　
　　　　双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。
　　
　　　　朋友　　
　　　　当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。
　　
　　　　执着
　　
　　　　说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。
　　
　　　　自尊　　
　　　　双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。
　　
　　　　分享
　　
　　　　在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。
　　
　　　　双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

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Wow~ it is so glad Gemini to be written as so 'Angel ' ... ^^ I like and share to you too.

Lucky

  Hello! I'm in great mood today. ^^ Yeah~ as you know I know he know...today measurement paper over! This morning woke up about 4.00a.m. to make last revise.Read and read and read...automatically mind appeared few people. My heart full of thanks...You will know who you are even if I didnt mention out. Just because I didnt do it well and make all of you in trouble with my stuff. I feel so unresponsible to myself. You guys really really "buddies" enough...Before exam, spend every Thursday to help me, stay two more days in Setapak after exam to teach me, purposely go to collage to answer my questions and check pass year answers and purposely stayed in Tar Villa for whole week to stand in me after her exam...a wall post, sent 3 messages to wake me up in this morning, a best wish message before exam, once exam over they are the 1st person who called me ...  Oh God...How come I am so lucky ? See Jiun will keep it in heart,Promise. You may be think why I am so funny to say lucky although resit paper. I have the right to ignore your curiosity...but I won't. Let's see

                                                    人生因失去而美丽.
                                              Life become amazing in lost.
Nothing is perfect. Sometime we may lost somethings that very important for us and this make us different with others. Dont think ourselves is weird but unique.Same case here.Obviously showed what is lost and what is amazing. 

                      After exam, where did I go? No sleep? No rest? Yeah~ ~SHOPPING !!!

                                                  Our Lovely Lunch (*.*)/ \(*.*)

Black Pepper Butter Chicken Chop

                                                    Black Pepper Chicken Chop

Restaurant's name ---->加油站
Hope the coming year two in Diploma of Quantity Surveying,  you and I Add Oil together. ^^

Be Strong And Happy Always

  After stayed in library 5 hours alone, mind really tired. Last half hour passed with Pui Yan. When I saw her in library suddenly feel so warm. She didn't do anything and said anything special to me. Sit in front of her, I am like kid as I know she won't mind.1st step back to PV12 house feel so happy to talk with Foo Koay and Yee Wen.One hour chatting also make me destress. I found that they become part of my life. I would not keep anything and pretend in front of them. We live together almost a year (included Kah Yan). Refresh back the momories between us I wonder, I am who I am in front of them. They stayed when I happy, angry, sad...It is so glad to have them beside.

  What make me realised their important? Honestly, FAMILY. Suddenly miss home so much. Sis asked whether want follow her back this weekend or not. I was not replied don't want but can't. Exam is still on. I have to keep it on revision. It has happened something seriously. I don't know how to slove it. I have tried to. Stop myself to think about it anymore. How afraid I was during that time. I just hope to ran back home and stay beside someone who will protect me ( no matter I am wrong or right), they still love me and care me. You may say I so dependance...(sorry as I cant stand with that) beside that I don't know what to say.
  I know I have to be strong. I want as strong as my dad and mum. I want as smart as you. I want as confident as him. I want as happy as naive child.

When There Is the Time I Dont Know Who Can Talk To

  I will write.Hope miracle happens on me.Looking for room to move.I dont want leave PV12 because I already use to live here.Before that people said it should be very easy for me to look for a new room after study here almost a year.Knowing the environment well and got friends.I though that it's too.However I found it is not that easy as what we expected .
  Time pass silently.Fouth week of sem 3.Few day class in a week but time still not enough for me to play and rest.Lazy to study at all.However sleep time is changed back to origin.^^ That only one thing I can proud with. All lesson and tutorial need finish the syllabus on time.Short sem suck too.For example I can only spend not more than half hour to stay here.
  I love the song "What Are Words" by Chris Medina. Listen everynight to make my heart full.I just look for a right man exactly like what he sang. ^^

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're goneAnywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

I AM FINE

She hugged me in the 1st second.  I smiled.
She asked are you okay?   I said I am ok...
She said dont think so much just do it.  I reply yup.
She asked why you look happy?I answered I dont have the reoson to be cry...
He bought some biscuit for me.  I am touch.
He said hey dont like that,ok?dont like that...  I smile and reply nothing.
She listened my words and would like to know what I will be do for next.  I said waiting ...
She said I know what you thinking because she was last time.I listened silently and the hurt is warm.
She try her best to help me,support me always,help me to plan revise timetable...she is the one who always sit beside me.I said I am very strong.

I just want to tell you all.
I AM FINE.
Thanks.

How I Passed The Month Before

13.1.2011
I still remember the day after Measurement...It killed me.Well,I controled my depression right now.I went shopping with San San, Wendy, Hui Yee and one of her friend.That was our first date.Oh~ I forgot took some pictures...We have next time.^^

20.1.2011
The stupid Kah Yan came back PV to visit us...The night San chat with us too untill 3 somethings.Don't miss up the 3 "pat bo zai' still chat when San and I go to bed.Aha~~ Girls is like that a lot to share and a lot fun when we get together.Early in the morning San woke up before the time we set...She can't sleep whole night.Haha...Anna....is that your bed too hard?

21.1.2011 and 22.1.2011
Yeah,Original Group C organised a trip to Genting.Early in the morning,Tony's brother fetch us to Gombak bus station.21st is San San's birthday.Erm..sorry that I didnt prepare her present well.^^ She wont care as long as our friendship last forever that is the most valuable for her n I.San...Hope you full use the masks that I gave you.That night they prepared a slices of cheese cake for her.Our pleasure moments were shown in the nice photos.

年三十晚
Reunion dinner...Its so glad.Sister rush back from KL.She didnt eat breakfast and lunch to complete all her works in office so that can come back on time to eat the dinner with us.My brother(work in Singapore)...he wont miss out these important section too.Beside that we celebrated Thin Foong birthday that night...hahaha...The two cute babies ...We stay together again in this Chinese New Year Eve.

He hug her tight!! ^^

14.2.11 Valantine Day
My Facebook status was "I wont hate Valantine Day though I an still SINGLE".The 1st day to go back Tarc.I am so happy to meet the friends in Tarc.Yeah! This CNY I didnt gambling at all, I swear!! ^^ However I broke it that day. Class cancled so Tony gang went his house to "bai nian".LOL...We start our gambling then...I won RM14 ^^ Tony so pity to lose his RM50 to us..."Jon,do you have enough money to take LRT",Sophie asked?! HAHA!! I already called them don't gambling what...haha...My life because of you gang become more fun! Thanks Tony grandmum for the angpau and his niece is so cute too...

元宵节
Maybe I was not so luck yesterday but I'm sure that was a touch and happy day.I tried to change group but FAILED.My mood was down untill I meet Pui Yan in library.All things was told to her.She brought me go basketball court .I had a match with her gang of friends.Thanks to allow me joined.That only one reason when I requested for basketball.Anna was not willing to cook with us,she said "I'm on diet".LOL!! However...^^ Yee Wen and Kah Yan miss out these..We enjoyed our pasta and "Tang Yuan"....

Examination

  During exam I am still writting here.This is not the way I like before.Everything has exception.A lot of things happened within this week.I just want to sketch it out to share with you.
  1st,one of the PV12 19th floor Ipoh girls left yesterday.We have did a lot before she left.Her sound is no more.All touch words were hand in for her already.As a friend I wish her all the best.
  2nd,english paper gone.Yesterday when I took this paper...feel so ashamed for my english.If I tell others that I have took almost ten years time for tuition in english.You will be so surprise why my english is still poor like SHIT.Another things I want to mention here is why I am still using english to write in here.Yeah,I don't wanna to give up on it.Therefore hope I can write more to improve.You notice my mistake kindly inform me personaly. ^^ Don't try to look me down.That is my way to learn.
  3rd, Building Construstion.I think I have already put a lot of effort on it.Yet can answer it well.Don't talk about Score.It can pass that enough for me.If this let mum and Tyng know...aiyo~~nagging will start.
  Phiew~~ another two paper to go...Good luck for myself .Almost two weeks didnt sleep before 12.00 midnight. Pimples and penda eyes...oh...ENOUGH! Go to bed right now.Good night and sweet dream.